You Know... Sometimes Caring SUCKS

Why do I freak out like an insane psycho-maniac when I think something is going wrong with my bf?
Why do I flip my absolute shit whenever I don't get to spend time with him?! I don't distrust him! As a matter of fact, I trust him more than anyone in the world. I mean, every now and then he needs to decompress and be alone. So?! Why does it matter so much?!

I drive myself crazy.

Well Herro There, Sunshine!

I... Have been doing a lot of thinking lately.
About what kind of state my mind will be in when I get older.
Will I remember the people who mean so much to me? With a history of Alzheimer's in my family, I can't be so sure.
That makes what I'm going to do all the more important. I want to document my days, my life, like a journal. Some of it will be on here but all of it will for sure be compiled for future reading. Even if I don't live long enough to lose my memory (my hope), my children will have insight into their mother that could never have had otherwise.
A bittersweet moment to come to-- documenting your life because you know someday you will lose it. In our own ways, it's proving that we were here, that we existed on this planet full of people!

So here goes. On this day, thus far, I have done... Pretty much nothing. Great start, eh?! Actually, I spent some much needed time with my sweet friend and roommate, Christie. We talked and ate and goofed around-- A wonderful sunny spring Sunday! My hope for tonight is to have dinner and watch TV with my loving boyfriend, Drew. (PS: We've been dating for ONE YEAR AND TWO DAYS!)

Living in Boone is a blessing--especially when the weather is beautiful, like today! Sipping coffee and internetting all day. A nice start to my spring break! Homework will be done later... :) I can't call myself a procrastinator without backing it up now, can I? ;)

I'm still experimenting with my new haircut... I miss the length! But all those dead ends needed to go. And it's hair. It'll grow back.

The bangs are bangin'. HA. Drew says that he now knows why they call them "bangs." He's cute. :P But it's definitely nice to know he likes the new style. It matters, you know!

My addiction to Pinterest is growing every day. I love it. It's magazine clipping without all the mess!!! YAY! I love when my favorite hobbies grow into new medias. So diverse and fun.

I've been exploring my Kindle and I'm so excited about the awesome prices on Amazon.com. The number of books I've read in my life is going to go up drastically with my next paycheck... :D
Unfortunately, the Kindle won't connect to my university's wifi... So... :( I'll figure it out. Drew's wifi may have to do!!

I wish Drew would get off of work soon... Today would have been a PERFECT day to go explore the Parkway! But the sun will be going down soon... Maybe on his next day off? I hope so. I need a Blue Ridge Parkway fix! You can't live in Boone and go to the Parkway as rarely as I do... It's really very shameful.

Well, I'm gonna go soak up what little bit is left of this sunshine!
Have an excellent Sunday night, ya'll.

Heartache

I had this whole blog written out bitching and complaining about my boyfriend being a jerk on our anniversary.
And the last line said, "I know him acting like this once a year isn't anything to bitch about [...] Haven't I made him happy over the last year?"


I'm gonna shut up now and hope my day gets better. Life is good all in all. So my Friday is gonna be a sad day. Boo hoo. There are those out there who have bad lives. I need to suck it up and tell myself to get over it.


As a matter of fact, I'm going to pretend that our anniversary doesn't exist. It's another day. I mean, if I'm the only one who cares, why bother?

Cloudy Days, Beautiful Minds

So my boyfriend and I got a nice little taste of what it would be like living alone together. We were called on to dog/house sit while a friend went away on a cruise for a few days.

It was marvelous. We loved every second.
Doesn't mean we're ready to move in together... But it was a nice little experience nonetheless.

I continue to have trouble motivating myself to do... well, anything pretty much. All I want to do is sit at home, cleaning, watching tv, reading, whatever suits my mood. Senioritis is setting in! Graduation is less than two semesters away--and yet I have no idea what I'll do or where I'll go. I desperately want to continue school... So my plan right now is to jump on in to grad school. *fingers crossed* My hope is that it will make me more marketable when the economy finally hits a good place again (slowly on it's way??).

That's my thought process anyway! Hope springs eternal... right?

Say what?!

I don't know about you guys but when I see blatant injustice it really pisses me off.
My roommate was RAPED at the beginning of last fall semester.
The school let the two rapists back on campus.
Right?
I think not.
And don't doubt my credibility. This girl is my friend and until she was chased away from the school she was my roommate.
The devil, or dark forces, or whatever the hell you believe in is at work here. You can tell when 5 athletes rape a young woman in succession and then two of those same athletes go out a month later and rape my friend. And the school LETS THEM BACK.
When did it become ok to violently take advantage of each other? Since when did the call to love become the call to harm? And since when is it okay to sit back and let it happen?
Has no one got anything to say?
Will there be no justice?
To that I say FUCK NO. I will fight until I die for what is right, true, loving, honest and just friggin' DECENT.
Join me.