PUMP IT UP

You know there are just those days when you have to look at yourself in the mirror and PUMP. YOURSELF. UP.

This is how it goes.

"You got this. You GOT this."
"Do you hear me?"
"YOU CAN DO THIS!"
"WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!"

Today is absolutely one of those days.
Nothing is even really wrong! It's just one of those days when I feel discouraged about little things. One of those days when the little things poke and prod a little more than usual.
Hence, the PUMPING UP. WOOOOO!

& what helps more with that than COFFEE?! Exactly. Nothing.
Well... maybe combine it with Family Guy. Then we're good.

:)

Beautiful Day

It's a beautiful day outside. I'm so happy for the sunshine and the warm weather. I wish I didn't have so much to do today so I could go outside and play in it!

I need to take some time to read some more of my book. Right now I'm in the middle of the third book in the Hunger Games Trilogy and loving it! I can definitely see what all of the hype is about.
The one thing that keeps me from flying through them is the fact that the violence is so emotionally charged. If it were just blind violence, I don't think it would effect me the way it does. When emotions are brought in, everything changes.

I'm so hungry... I ate at Stick Boy for the first time yesterday and I loved it! So delicious! I had a lemon poppy seed muffin and a sticky bun... YUM. And now of course I'm broke and can't afford to eat there again this morning... Life, right?

But I am working right now to remedy that situation.
Work does in fact = money.
Thank goodness!

Finally, I've Arrived

For the first time in my life, I am happy being alone.

Not just happy being alone, I need to be alone. When I get off work, I need to be able to sit down and do whatever I need to do to relax. I need to be able to clear my mind how ever I see fit.

I'm almost 22 years old and I'm just now happy to be myself. By myself.

I love that now I can rely almost completely on myself for my own happiness.

Huge steps forward.

Thank God.

I have come so far in the last 5 years...

From not being able to be alone to needing to be alone.

Maybe one or two panic attacks a month. Maybe. I would never have dreamed of that my senior year of high school. Back then it was 3-4 a day.


I now understand the sacrifices my family, friends, past boyfriends, all made for me. They gave up their precious alone time during their incredibly busy lives... To make me feel better.

I took all of that for granted.

I'm so thankful for the people in my life... <3