Stupid emotions

I blame you. I'm not sure why, but I do. This is all your fault. I don't know what you did, but it's YOUR fault I can't stop crying.
It's your fault I don't recognize the girl in the mirror when you're around. You're. Damn. Fault.
It's your fault I get all crazy and insane and should be committed...
Stupid emotions...

Pessimism Catches

The search for a roommate continues!
Feeling rather uncomfortable living with a male, who is also a stranger, definitely limits my options. :/

It makes me sad that all of my friends already have living situations! But oh well. I guess I was just too late getting into the apartment hunt.

I'm definitely struggling to get motivated to do all the things I need to be doing. Not just today but in general. I want to sit back, keep going to school, keep my university job and continue to keep my stress level at only that point (which is still pretty high, juggling work, school, and social life-- it's stressful being a college kid!). We all know, though, that eventually there comes a time when the responsibilities have piled up so high you're drowning in them... & then you know you've become an adult.

... Can you tell I've become rather pessimistic lately? I really do wish I knew why... :/

Hopefully I'll be back to my bright, sunny self soon...

Lessons Learned, Bridges Burned

I don't know if anyone reads this but if they do I would love to know some of your favorite ways to save money!

Tasty cheap meals, fun recycling ideas, ways to save electricity, water, etc... I'm always on the look out for new ideas!

For instance, I unplug as much as possible when I'm not using it in order to conserve energy.
I separate out cardboard and plastic and metal for recycling.
I take shorter, cooler showers to save hot water.
I recycle water bottles.
I only use as much water/coffee as I know I will drink-- No  more wasted whole pots! And if I want more, well then I can brew it!

There have got to be more ways out there for us college kids and folks strapped for cash to survive and still ENJOY our lives! Let's figure it out!

:P

The World Isn't Right

Something is drastically and horribly wrong with a world that runs on green paper.

I mean, we're all just trying to survive here. But life isn't life if you're stuck obsessing over a piece of green paper that you'll never have enough of. And you never have enough of it according to everyone else because they're the ones that want it and keep taking it from you.

I feel like I'm not living. My thoughts are taken up with money.
I wake up panicking over money.
I eat, sleep, drink money.
I fall asleep to fitful nightmares of money.

Green pieces of paper litter the skies of my dreams and burn holes in my soul.

And now that I'm entering the world of adulthood, I can only wonder this:

Will I ever live again?