Finally, I've Arrived

For the first time in my life, I am happy being alone.

Not just happy being alone, I need to be alone. When I get off work, I need to be able to sit down and do whatever I need to do to relax. I need to be able to clear my mind how ever I see fit.

I'm almost 22 years old and I'm just now happy to be myself. By myself.

I love that now I can rely almost completely on myself for my own happiness.

Huge steps forward.

Thank God.

I have come so far in the last 5 years...

From not being able to be alone to needing to be alone.

Maybe one or two panic attacks a month. Maybe. I would never have dreamed of that my senior year of high school. Back then it was 3-4 a day.


I now understand the sacrifices my family, friends, past boyfriends, all made for me. They gave up their precious alone time during their incredibly busy lives... To make me feel better.

I took all of that for granted.

I'm so thankful for the people in my life... <3